Wednesday, July 11, 2012

sakura bloom: sling dairies: HISTORY

this post is the 5th installment of sakura bloom's sling diaries. you can see my other posts in this series here.

on march 17th, 2011
i wrote the following...

Dear Baby-

I know that I don't remember when I was in the womb... so it's apparent that you won't remember your time in their either. But this realization doesn't stop me from wondering... how aware are you? You are quite restless. you respond to touch. you seem to like it when i listen to music. and when your daddy shakes my belly around to wake you up, you punch back. is it all just a reflex? or are you really somewhat aware of your surroundings and curious about the things that change up the norm? One day, I hope we'll have the answers to these questions. Until then, just keep on rolling around- your movements sometimes make me laugh out loud and I love to laugh.



as i contemplated how i wanted to explore the theme of "history" for this month's post... i couldn't help but think back on my history with emerson. HIS-STORY.

"his story" began in 2008 when britton and i met and started dating. for those of you who know me personally, you may know our dating story. but here it is in a nutshell: we started out as friends who occasionally dated. and over the course of several months our friendship grew deeper and stronger. britton proposed me to on july 3rd, 2009, while hiking. (you can see a video of it here).

engagements taken by jill thomas.

we both wanted a fall wedding and didn't want to wait a whole year to get it, so we pulled off our wedding in 2 months. (crazy!) we were married in the salt lake temple on september 5th, 2009.

wedding day photography by christine olson

and that, dear baby, was the beginning of the reality of what could be you.

dearest emerson,
when we found out that you were going to come to our family, your daddy and i were both a bit anxious and excited. it was going to be a whole new chapter in our lives. we love each other very much and were excited to have been able to create a life--YOU. we anxiously documented the whole progress of how you grew inside of me. i felt you move and shared moments with you. i was excited to see your face, to kiss your cheeks, to love you. i couldn't wait to see you smile and to hear you laugh. what a new adventure parenthood is, and we were thrilled to have this journey with you!

towards the end of my pregnancy, i went to the downtown salt lake farmer's market to be photographed by the lovely alisha stamper. she maintains a booth at the farmer's market and takes large-format instant polaroid portraits. they are stunning! these above images were taken at week 37, last summer at her booth.

as your birth-date drew near, we prepared for your arrival. we planned on bringing you into this world in a peaceful and loving setting. we planned a home-birth. i was so ready to have you in my arms and out of my belly that i actually mowed the lawn on your due date. :) i guess you liked the motion because you decided that you were ready to come into my arms as well. labor started that night and you were born the following day. luckily for me, i had incredible photographers (and such good friends) there, ready to document your arrival.

the day of your arrival is a story in itself. i wrote it down and shared it here:

part one.

part two.

part three.

alisha was there as well, with her large-format camera, taking polaroids of your birth. they are stunning images. so unique. so different. so beautiful.

birth images taken by alisha stamper

your life has been well-documented and i am so excited to share with you your story. as i thought about what i could say and how i could tell you, i realized that the perfect way would be to revisit a few of the important places from before your birth... so that we could share new moments together as you experience your history.

and so, i took you to the market to see alisha. (for all of you in utah- she is still at the market every saturday. her portraits are instant. and beautiful. and only $15. seriously- a winning combination! they're worth every penny! go and visit her! and tell her i sent you!)

above portrait taken by alisha stamper at the downtown farmers market in salt lake.

after taking you to the downtown market, i knew that there was more to do to share with you some of your "history." and since our summer in salt lake has us so close to temple square, your daddy and i decided that it would be neat to take you there- so that you could see where we were married. we wanted you to experience a bit of your heritage as well. you see, your ancestors- some of your great great great- grandparents (on both sides!) came across the plains with the mormon pioneers.

there are many more stories that i will share with you, many more places for us to visit to help you understand who you are and where you came from. the most important thing that i want you to understand and know though is that you are loved. the stories shared here, through the theme of history are all about the love of two people who created you! and about how much we love having you be a part of our lives.

you're learning more and more every day. it's exciting to see you grow.

i know you'll do great things. never forget how much i love you.
love, mom.


  1. I don't know which I love more...the polaroid or the picture of you holding the polaroid with those red nails and that yellow sling. The color is so pretty. And then there's your pleated skirt. And emers peaking over your shoulder. So cute!

    1. thanks leslie :) i cant wait to see your little one!!

  2. So many beautiful images in this post! Those polaroid birth photos are simply breathtaking.

    1. thanks! i loved pulling them out and looking at them again. birth is such an amazing and life-changing event!

  3. such a sweet post for him to read when he's older.
    and what a beautiful family.

    1. awww. thank you emily! :) i hope he'll enjoy reading it when he's older. i actually tried to read it to him this morning. didn't really work. but he is only 11 months...

  4. oh girl. i love you so much. photographing these points in your life have been so worthwhile for me as an artist, mother and friend. I have loved documenting this all. Your shaping of the theme "History" was superb. Well done, lady. WELL DONE.